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Dream house

Sometimes though people say that they wish they have to disappear from this world and have to go somewhere new and colorful. What will happen if Janani lands on her dreamland? Let us step into her dreamworld and explore it with her.

I am awake. Standing at the porch, enjoying the rain drops falling from the roof with a coffee mug in hand is the real happiness one can get. I wake up from my bed with an energy of greeting my mother Nature. I switch on my music player and light music from my favorite collections starts to play in the background. While refreshing, I can see the girl in the oval mirror in my bathroom with long white nightgown and ruffled hair in wavy knots around her shoulder. I smile remembering yesterday night's event. Having ice cream and playing in the rain makes you feel lighter. After having such a fun, I remember taking a warm shower and changed into my favorite nightgown. And then what? A romantic comedy movie and few pages from my book, that fulfilled my day.

I say, "Good morning, sweetie" to my reflection in the mirror. Then I go to kitchen to help myself with some breakfast. But I wanted to go out and have a sight of the sun rays warming the dampness of yesterday's chillness. I prepared a quick coffee and went to stand near the porch area. I sat in the door steps. I could see the small flowers about to bloom. I could hear the birds chirp along with the music that is playing from my room. I can hear people walking and talking in the streets. I can see the pets going for a walk with their owners. I can see kids with sleepy eyes on the play area behind. Like me, the sun has come to see all these wonderful happenings with a bright mood. The dampness is slightly been washed away. I am shaking a branch of the tree and drops of water fall over my head. I am enjoying everything around me.

After standing there for sometime, who knows how long I stood there completely mesmerized, I go to my study room. Window walls allow me to have a good look of what's happening outside. One side of the wall is stocked with all of my book collections. It gives me peace and whenever I step into this room, it is like stepping into a new world. I take a book from the shelf and sit in the chair near by the window. Then I think it will be better to go to the backyards, lay there on the grass and read this book would be awesome. So, I start to walk towards the backyards, grab an apple from the dining table and lay on the grass. I started to doze off after a while with the book wrapped in my hands. :)

What a day! I google and cook something on my own and later appreciating myself on my cooking skills.. Going for a walk in the evening.. Then back to sleep for making myself ready for the next day..

"Wake up, Janani", calls my mother."How long will you be sleeping?" Oh, my dream. That's okay. Let me continue going to my dream land every night. "Good morning Mom" I replied her with a smile. How does she know about my dreamland? :P





Diwali wishes :)

Hey,
As you know, this is my personal blog where I can scribble anything that comes to my mind :) Kind of hobby you can say :P And this diwali makes me realize I have grown, haha, yeah, stepping into a new career and way for a bright future. Let me wish yu all a very happiee diwali first.

And I wanted to share my other blogs too.. My reading stuff are updated sometimes in http://meghreads.blogspot.in/ and my writting stuff are very rarely kept in http://marvellousmegh.blogspot.in/


Also I made a new video on this special occasion. Wanna see? Hit Play >>

Megh Forever :)

Convocation Day

June 19,2016


One of the memorable days in my diary. My Convocation day. Had Loads and loads of fun with all my friends. Lots of hugs and love. So many clicks. Leaving this great TCE Campus with heart full of memories. There are much more moments still alive inside me. Preethi asking about doing my data mining homeword and my great reaction to her, Sathya's affectionate fights, Pragathi's sweet words and her care for everyone, Priya and Saroshma's plays, wordless bond among priya, yuvii and me, The best companion and my first love (Haha) Placement group selfies, groupfiees, Tension while attending placements, fun while eating and fighting for food in the guest house, seniors' treats, Orientation program with freshers, My first and last time speech at KS Audi dias, My missed day on Raki Don becoming GS and Preethi Darl as GT, Billa's affection as a brother, My daughter in this college :P, Me chasing Don all around the department for my purse, Me and priya caught by HOD for running near seminar Hall for chocolate, Sista blaming for keeping always bro n sis quotes as my dp, Chandru making fun of everything, Rathna's works and affection, Ram calling me as LG, Saru, Singa and Thameema teasing Paru on her Network lessons, Gowthami,yuvi,priya and me with Kirthika and Dhivya for Zeus rounds, Everyday work discussions on Fb with Don and Last minute internals and semester preparations with Preethi,sathya,Pragathi and Priya, Indira maam's care, Nimmy liking me, Sharing bro-sis quotes and all other class problems with the representative of the class :P and Priya teasing and playing with me from an unknown number, my angriness and how it fades, laughter, smile, Treasure hunts, And much more to say..



Can't even forget any one moment. It is like we have stepped into the college for the very first day, having attend our orientation on Aug2, 2012 and yet we are here now, as GRADUATES. If given a chance, we all will live in the past for sure. We want all those happiee days back.
Who said I can't express my anger? It is that I don't want to show you how much hurt I am. Yeah Don, I am very much angry on you. But I know you would seriously ask why and you don't know the reason behind it. I seriously doubt that could you actually feel the closeness we had from 3rd sem to 5th sem? But sorry I wouldn't say so. Yep, you were my best friend come brother during that time, even now ( for I am being the same ) and yet that's not the case with you. Or atleast you make me think like that.

I don't know how this distance came, and now there is big gap between you and me. Then one day, you will come and ask, who is she? And I would act normally :P Who knows? You may say, that I am the one thinking like that and there is nothing like that happening. Okay, I may agree with you, but why do I start thinking about this? There is some misunderstanding started somehow. And I don't even know how and when it was created. If at all, I could , sorry, we could sort it somehow and make the best friends back again.

Starting with a "Hi, started anything regarding the project? " in our 3rd sem, our friendship had a same wavelength which you even told me. Then during the events conducted in our dept,the classworks we had daily, everything we used to discuss. Do I even have to say about internals and semester? I don't think I would have studied without you rushing up and helped me study. You were such a best friend of mine who helped me in doing everything. You would also show me whatever you are doing is correct, and ask me a suggestion is that okay? you know what, I just liked that you are asking me to tell that is correct and it makes me so special like i am your best friend. And so, whatever it is you have done so many things to me, and at least all i could do is wishing my brother all success and everything good should happen.

But later on, as a GS, you gave us all works like setting question papers. At that moment, I felt like you were there to help me and I can finish it. But you were not. You were very busy during these last few months and I couldn't say a word. you wouldn't deny it but postpone it. So, I have got to do it all alone. Then with two or more incidents, I got used to it. So, you will be busy and I wouldn't question you further. All I have to do was to deal with my disappointments.

See, whenever our routine was like before giving a speech you would send me that speech and you would read that to me no? I was like one among our rules, or just I felt so. And when it was my first time to speak on the dias, you were not online to see the speech I wrote, you were not there when I spoke and you didn't even care when I was listening to the video of my talk on the dias, when I got it later. I felt like are you even caring me?

And when I spoke everything out to you on my birthday night, it was not a fight for status. I know you like me. But as a friend, if you are not keeping that much of a status for me, then how can you keep something better to someone else? Won't it make me feel that I am not that important to you than them? see, even now I am not talking about any dramatic status for me. When people around me say: " Is Rakesh your friend? I didn't know. I feel like he is not even talking or being close to you than how he is acting with me." It hurts me when people say stuff like this. It is like I am the one keeping on saying that I am your friend and the other side is not so. You may say, why do you even care about what others say? Yeah, I know don, I obviously know you. And so I was being quiet all these times. But you do have to think from my situation. It happens right?

At times, I will wait for you to come see me at your busy schedules. But you won't. And some times, you will even say that ' we are daily talking over phone right? Then what ?' Yeah, Nothing. Let me leave. It is not like we are meeting after so many days after this intern. I can survive. And we are talking no? then what's the problem with me? I should have guessed this.

And If you are not able to come meet me when I asked you to come over, you should have said no, I cant come. I should have left don, without expecting anything. But everytime, this happens. I feel wounded.

And when you said once that you felt like I am distancing myself from you, it was actually happening. And when you said that I just felt like telling you, at that moment, I felt like you are saying like I do always and I reacted like you. I said " There is nothing like that. Don't think anything".
I felt bad for behaving so rude on that day. That was why I even asked you sorry. I tried to suppress everything down and started talking normally.

And this is the story of you in my diary. I wish we could return back to the olden days when I felt that close friend and caring brother is still there for me.

Morever, don't take anything in the wrong way. This is what I felt all these times and now all are in words. That's it. End of story. Wait to see if there is some thing towards the happiee blossoming turning.

Things learnt from my friends

Hello guyz,
Meghna is back after a long time! Looks like she is busy.. :P Haha..
But seriously I am. Yeah, I feel different after these 5 months of my life in Bangalore. I have started living an independent life. I came to know about the real world. I have had a lot many lessons during this period. I came to know about the true faces. I have started wondering now that Can people be even like this? But as I have promised myself, I am not here to blame or criticize anyone. All I need to do is I have got to accept this which is really really hard for me. The friendz I trusted who will always be close enough with me are acting weird now. And to them, it is nothing and it is their usual behavior. But I couldn't tolerate it. I need to put my anger atleast in words. See, I do have feelings right?But this post- only to tell you what are the things I admire and learnt from my friends.

Priya - Selfless

Rakesh- Wants everyone around him

Yuvi - Tells everything to her friends.. makes them do anything for her

Rathna - Handles everything in a cool way

Preethi - Achieves everything by talking

Sathya - Tolerated me for 4 years

Prags - Responsible & caring

Sush - Straight forward

Sanofer - Thinks in both the ways

Sumo - Kind hearted

Yeah, you may think how many people does she keep on writing? Does she have that much friends? Why is she showing off? But the fact is totally different. Every story has a turning right? Well.. may be mine has many turns.. Letz see.. But I can handle these sharp turns for I am driver in my own journey.

Megh Forever :)

18.2.2016 on the way to office

Itz been 8.00 am. And still we are about to cross silkboard traffic. I have started to love this city's traffic. Sight seeing with earphones plugged on in this beautiful morning where the sun is peeping behind the clouds is an awesome beginning of the day. The specially is the scene of kids rushing with their parents, swinging in their dad's arm as they are late to catch their school van. Also those cute reactions and their childish faces emerging out from the full covered sweatshirts is so damn cute. Haha.. This morning is so fresh and welcoming. This makes me feel like something special or something I like/love would happen. I feel energetic. The weather is so lovely. I am enjoying this moment. You know what? There are violet flowers on both the sides of the road. Now crossing my favourite spot in this HSR layout.


 That statue indicating the earth's day near this lake.. Oh my God! No words to describe!! Hoping for everything to go well.. And I know, it will. Once at least I have to go to this Agara temple. The trees here are tall and semi circle in structure that they make an arch for the center road. My grey churidhar's duppata and my free hair are flying in rhythm to the music being played in my playlist. Hey finally, the sun is out. It's rays are bright enough to warm not only the physical chillness we feel but also it gives the warmth to our inner soul. It is like, the brighter and better times are coming to wash away the darkness. And this is central mall. Once we visited this mall bunking our office time. Thousand years song is playing. Wowieee!!! And here is ecospace. Cab takes a U turn now. Yeah.. This is my own Orion campus. The practical little world of mine. Let all the days I spend here with my friends be enjoyable as always. ;)

With Love,
Megh Forever :)

My Roomies


Yeah, This post is about my roomies, what I feel about them and how I feel they react on the way I act. As you know, this is completely a new environment for me and I love new stuffs. I love exploring and living in a different world. I miss my siisy,mom,dad and my big family :P though. Still, this new room ( a small box like structure called room, cute and small) with new people ( all with different mentalities) make me feel like I am in home. Yep, they are friendly and adjustable, respecting each other feelings. I am glad and feeling blessed that I have been gifted with good people around me, always :) :D

Sulthana

The girl I thought who will be reserved and calm enough turned to be the craziest one among the four of us. She likes calling her as Sanofer ( itz her real first name, but whatz fun in calling the same one always :P ) and Chintu ( a cute little name her mother kept her, which is really damn cute name and so how can I call that idiot with this cute name? ) haha.. Aaluma, will be better. Its been nearly 3 months of stay and I feel much closer with this girl ( and point to be mentioned, The way of speaking,girl in almost all sentences, is mainly because of her). I never thought that she will be like this! Yeah, always shouting, playing,laughing,enjoying, roaming, caring, observing, everything... I cant even say that she is like me, 'cause she is much more beyond comparable than me. This is not the only thing that drew me closer to her. She also observes me well, just like priya does. I am a open book, I know, but still, I feel like she knows me better. Also she is not always that open or straight forward that sometimes I had to find how she reacts and you know, I am not that good in observing people, which makes it difficult. And May be because of this, I feel like I am not as close as a Bestie to her, but I don't care. Whatever she thinks , who cares, I will be like this and be open and friendly with her. Afterall, I even told her that after Priya, she is the one to understand me. People can understand or even guess about me blindly, but the way they react matters. That is what differentiate friends and besties. And, did I tell this? She thinks a lot. A lot too much. I don't even know how to say, but seriously, always something will be keeping on rolling in her mind I guess. Even while speaking? No way. And this girl is full of reactions. I know she pretends to hide most of her reactions but we can feel right? Different different reactions . :P The most adjustable,  well practiced not to hurt others and many more makes Sulthana. The craziest bestie in this universe whom I love a lot. Hey wait, did I tell Why do I like her? That Mental trusts me and acts like she has a right on me. The only reason of this, this way her liking me, I love her. A different mental case bestie :P

Sista

Sushmitha, the most straight forward girl I have ever seen. She has been my classmate for 3 years now and now we are Roomies. She is such a funny girl. She knows how people are around her. Like if they are in a wonderful mood, she will laugh and play with them. And if they are sad, she is the best Consoler. She used to comment on everything, like EVERYTHING. She had even kept me many names! Ah, for God's sake.. I couldn't list them.. ( Such a big List )  She speaks what is going on in her mind. That will be good but sometimes no, it hurts people. And she also knows this for we have a meeting on HOW WE PEOPLE ARE? Sounds funny right? But sometimes this will end up badly. Someone among us will be worried on how the track is going and that's it. We will end it. But you what? We people have never fought, or atleast , yet. We are that much adjustable., can you get it ? :P
Sush shares everything with us, she hears what we say and we have never once had a misunderstanding. These people no, they ignore me if something is not in the way, I could understand. :) She is stubborn. She never gives up. She does what she thinks. Sometimes she will be angry and the best thing is she speaks it out loud. So we can get to know, what is that she dislikes. At times, that could be sweet and at times, that could be a bit harsh. But still I like her for she likes me more. She never had a chance to fight with me, I guess :) And, this name , Sista, she kept this name for me and I am using it for her :P

Sumo

Sumo, the name she kept for herself, or her friends kept her , I dont know. But she likes it. She never likes her real name Shunmuga Priya. Weird. I like that name a lot and you know why :D
Whenever I think of Sumo, the only thing that comes into my mind is Caringness. She is so caring. She might be used to it. But still, I cant imagine how we will be in a hostel life enjoying this much, without her. She plans and does everything. Responsible girl. Yeah, that is the right word to describe her. She doesn't mingle with me that much or I feel like that. At times, she speaks something and it might hurt me. But I just ignore that part of her. Because knowing her, she is good enough. She is not the laughing, shouting and roaming kind of girl. Yet, she manages to be around us with a smile. I respect her for that. She is not completely open or close to me and so I dont know what to say. But to me, she is the responsible and caring among all of us.

This is my new life. This is my new friends circle with 3 other guys, Sivaram , Vel Murugan and Srivatsan. They are also friendly and jovial. We all know each other and help each other. And this is the life I am enjoying now in a different state. This feels like home, may be a rented one :P

Megh Forever :)