A page from Janani's diary

South indian place - where culture and heritage matters a lot. I am a typical south Indian girl. If you want to act independently, then you are named as rude. You have to act as the world expects you to act. You have to satisfy others to earn a good name. Yeah, society matters a lot than your own world.
And being born as a girl, you have to strictly fall into your boundaries. You will have to obey all these in order to get a great future. This is how a typical south indian family will be. And I always question if you are always thinking of what others might think, then how will you live your life? Without living for you, what is the point of satisfying the needs of others? You have to live your life independently. Be happy and make others happy.
My parents. They bought me up well. I am not exaggerating it. Because I feel proud enough to say this. I haven't regret for whatever I have done. I am good in making friends and I know my limits. My life was soo far good with all the precious time I had with my family and friends. My world is not that small. I have a big family and quite big friends circle. I am open to everyone. And I don't get attached too much to people. This is what I am. I donno what people will think of me, but I love everyone who loves me back.
I am happy and glad with this world of mine. I have always been enjoying in this heaven. But there comes a situation where parents think it is a duty to get their child married and send them off. Seriously!
I donno how they can make plans for wedding all of a sudden. I wonder what a custom is this to suddenly get bonded with a stranger. May be I could just limit to my thinking.
Wedding is a such a holy thing. Generally, girls are treated as goddess who bring happiness to a family. In a point of time, they are sent to another family to light their home with charm and happiness. There is a traditional Indian custom stating that Kannigadhaan is the greatest charity one can give. Kannigadhaan is generally done by the bride's dad to send his daughter to the groom's family. Nothing can be compared to Indian wedding. So traditional. So loving.
The point is that how that bride feels during her wedding. It is going to change her life.she is gonna change her surname, change her family, change her living.
So far, she has been the princess of her only home. Her dad and mom being the king and queen with her siblings to play and laugh with.
This is what her heaven was. How can she leave such a happy place. And even though the groom's family will treat her like the queen of all this world, her small heaven all she lived till now, it holds a lot of memories. How can she even think of leaving her small little happy place?
All these years, she doesn't even have a crush on anyone, waiting for her prince charming to come and hold her hand. Yeah, she would love her prince and his family with all her heart.
She will have to fall in love with that Prince, ready to do anything for him as he loves her dearly. She should feel like she is the angel for both the houses and bring joy. That is when both the Prince and the princess will fall in love all together and get ready for wedding.
That is when the bride will feel confident to leave her small heaven and head towards her Prince's kingdom.
That is when she feels loved by everyone and feel no difference between the two heavens and see both the kingdoms as a same family.
That is when she is completely and madly in love with the Prince and is ready to fly over the sky with him.
And all these are not planned to happen, they happen and alter your life suddenly, like a boom!
You have got to wait for it until then. ;)

Starting of my independent life

Sunday has never been this busy in all my life. I used to wake up late and getting a stare from my Mom during breakfast has become a habit. But today, I am running around my home, packing my dresses and my books.
"Hey Mom, come have a look whether I have packed everything." I call for my mother.
"Are you done with your packing, Ammu ?" her voice reaches me before her. She opens my bedroom door wide open and comes near me. My mom is in her yellow saree with a spoon in her hand. Obviously, she is preparing something I would love to eat.
"Where are your toiletries?" she examines my travel bag and a concerned look appears in her small face.
"I have it packed in my other bag, Mom" I say.
"Fine. Make sure you have packed all your files and documents. Now, it is getting late. Join your Dad for breakfast." I nod and place a small kiss in her cheek while rushing towards the kitchen.
"Its getting late." A silent reminder from my Dad. I see him in his ironed shirt and formal pants ready to go.
"Yes Dad, let's leave in few minutes." Unlike my Mom, my Dad loves me in his own style. He doesn't say it in words rather his action speaks. Whatever he does, it makes me feel he is so proud of me. I hunt for my breakfast in the next few minutes and wave a goodbye to my Mom and sister.

This is the first time I am leaving my house packing all my stuff with me. I can feel my parents and my sister missing me already. I am going to miss them a lot. But my curiosity of living independently and my first job makes me take this big step. I have a got a job offer from a well known corporate company some 300 miles away from my hometown. And I have got to report to them this Monday. I secretly pack a childhood pic of my sister and me sitting together inside my bag and God, I am really excited. My Dad is coming with me to help me find a home near my work place.

Later in the evening, we reach my workplace and my Dad is happy to see my office. We find a home nearby and my Dad pays the initial rent for me. The moonlight reflection falls into my new home through the side window. I look at my Dad and smile for everything he had done.
"Janani" He calls towards me from outside.
"Dad" I reply with a smile again.
"Sleep early. You have a big day tomorrow. Take good care of yourself. Call me once you reach your office." My Dad is such an organized person. I can see his care, his love for his beloved daughter.
"Sure Dad. Have a safe journey back to home." I wave him bye and go upstairs for my dinner.
I love my Dad. I love my small little family. I am missing my happy place.
Later that night, I get a call from my cousin asking about my stay.
"Hello Bro" I wish him.
"Hi Janani" He speaks in a calm way. "I met your Dad in the train station now."
"Oh yeah, he was just leaving after settling things here." I assure him I am set in this place.
"That's Good. Welcome to corporate world. Have a good start." I can hear him smile and wishing me from the other end.
"Thank you Bro" I answer. "Did Dad boarded Train safely?" I enquire.
"yes, I was with him when he boarded. He looked more worried about you. Don't know how he is going to make when you get to marry someone and leave. " I just smiled at that but my heart aches. Suddenly I feel thankful to God for having blessed with a lovely family.

A quick look around on Janani's Childhood

Hello,

This is gonna be fun. Everyone will have a memorable Childhood. Yeah, Janani's is my favourite :)

Janani, she is a cute little baby girl blessed to start any thing with a violent start, so that it would remain in her mind forever :P she doesn't do it on purpose. It happens. Confused? Let me go in detail.

She was born on Sunday, when there was a strike in the city with heavy rainfall with thunder and lightenings. Still she used to say that angels came to bless her that way :P

And then, there came an angel in her real life to be with her alwayz. Yes, Janani had a baby sister after 5 years, Mannu. She loves her more than anything.

Then schooling.. went as usual as everyone has. She has some miracles in her life happening then and there. Like, once her Mom was speaking about her maths grade in final exams that she has an instinct that Janani would score 100% and that happened later. Similarly, Janani got a random blessings  from a stranger once she visited temple before her final examinations. She is a girl with gift :)

Then came college admission. There was only one seat left and since the previous person rejected that offer, she got into her college and fulfilled her Dad's wish. It was like a battle - Yes or No moment and she chose that college without any hesitation.

Later during placements - Oh God, how difficult it was to enter into her dream Company. :O same happened during internship conversion also. Nothing comes easily and yet she has that charm and confidence.

Now, she has a hell lot of dreams going on her mind. She has to do MS before she gets into any relationships. Yeah, when we talk about relationships, Janani doesn't have crush nor she is interested in sightings. She feels that she can only admire her prince and she is still waiting for him. whoever crosses her life in between, she doesn't care and she is not interested. Yet her friends are still wondering how she is like this, or thinks that Janani is lying. But the fact is Janani is awaiting for her beloved prince. She will meet him once and fall in love at his first sight. Let us wait and see.

Now, she has got another instinct that she and her sister can never be left apart and she will have her sister at her side even after marriage. Yes, that can happen if her sister marries her husband's brother. :P Haha.. Rofl.. Janani doesn't even know her fiancee yet and still she dreams of like this. Hope her dream becomes true. :)

Love you Janani :)

Christmas at my Office

Celebrated 2016 christmas at Office. Vinod Anna was my Santa and this week was full of fun. Though I am bit worried on my prject, I enjoyed all my tasks and gifted my Santa in return. :)

Life is not that easy, haha.. yeah.. true that. We have to fight for everything to achieve it. Janani, I am jealous of you :P Nothing sweet to share in present. Letz go spend some quality time with Janani :)

Stay tuned.. Will share some pics during Christmas Celebrations soon,..

Will be back soon :)

Meghna.

A historical ride

Came here to Srirangam to worship Ranganadhar. What a wonderful place this is! God, itz amazing😃 The temple entrance has a look that can't be achieved by today's engineering technology. A very large and spacious place with more trees. Like a palace in the olden days. I am wondering how the king and queen used to live and spend time enjoying the unpolluted atmosphere. I myself want to live there atleast once😉
And this environment makes me realize I have my own world and I am the queen there. This kinda historical information has a thing for me. I am loving it.
A great wall with hard black stones is covering the massive palace. People are crowded at the entrance blocked by soldiers on each side. The green trees are calming the waiting people with its cool breeze. The evening dim light of sun rays are worried of missing the grand event that night. Yes, there is something going on inside the palace. The queen, oh my, she is looking adorable in her thick green silk saree with the matching crown governing her head. Her kind and happy face is shining brighter than her gold and diamond jewels. She looks at her daughter who is playing in the nearby river and smiles. People who are waiting at the grand entrance looking eagerly at the n storeyed palace and the glass windows can see the Queen's reflection in the windows. Her smiling face drives away their worries and makes them cheered up.
Up inside the hall, servants and maids are working hard to set the table. They are shouting to one another saying "our king said it should be a surprise" and others arguing "But, our queen likes it this way". Wow. How these people are loving their king and queen. The pillars around the palace and outside walls are all decorated with lamps. As soon as the sun bid Goodnight for the day, the palace lights filled the entire city. King and Queen are walking towards the red carpet and the princess is jumping through the stairs excited.
Who doesn't love to be there? I wish i were there with them 😉 

Dream house

Sometimes though people say that they wish they have to disappear from this world and have to go somewhere new and colorful. What will happen if Janani lands on her dreamland? Let us step into her dreamworld and explore it with her.

I am awake. Standing at the porch, enjoying the rain drops falling from the roof with a coffee mug in hand is the real happiness one can get. I wake up from my bed with an energy of greeting my mother Nature. I switch on my music player and light music from my favorite collections starts to play in the background. While refreshing, I can see the girl in the oval mirror in my bathroom with long white nightgown and ruffled hair in wavy knots around her shoulder. I smile remembering yesterday night's event. Having ice cream and playing in the rain makes you feel lighter. After having such a fun, I remember taking a warm shower and changed into my favorite nightgown. And then what? A romantic comedy movie and few pages from my book, that fulfilled my day.

I say, "Good morning, sweetie" to my reflection in the mirror. Then I go to kitchen to help myself with some breakfast. But I wanted to go out and have a sight of the sun rays warming the dampness of yesterday's chillness. I prepared a quick coffee and went to stand near the porch area. I sat in the door steps. I could see the small flowers about to bloom. I could hear the birds chirp along with the music that is playing from my room. I can hear people walking and talking in the streets. I can see the pets going for a walk with their owners. I can see kids with sleepy eyes on the play area behind. Like me, the sun has come to see all these wonderful happenings with a bright mood. The dampness is slightly been washed away. I am shaking a branch of the tree and drops of water fall over my head. I am enjoying everything around me.

After standing there for sometime, who knows how long I stood there completely mesmerized, I go to my study room. Window walls allow me to have a good look of what's happening outside. One side of the wall is stocked with all of my book collections. It gives me peace and whenever I step into this room, it is like stepping into a new world. I take a book from the shelf and sit in the chair near by the window. Then I think it will be better to go to the backyards, lay there on the grass and read this book would be awesome. So, I start to walk towards the backyards, grab an apple from the dining table and lay on the grass. I started to doze off after a while with the book wrapped in my hands. :)

What a day! I google and cook something on my own and later appreciating myself on my cooking skills.. Going for a walk in the evening.. Then back to sleep for making myself ready for the next day..

"Wake up, Janani", calls my mother."How long will you be sleeping?" Oh, my dream. That's okay. Let me continue going to my dream land every night. "Good morning Mom" I replied her with a smile. How does she know about my dreamland? :P

Diwali wishes :)

Hey,
As you know, this is my personal blog where I can scribble anything that comes to my mind :) Kind of hobby you can say :P And this diwali makes me realize I have grown, haha, yeah, stepping into a new career and way for a bright future. Let me wish yu all a very happiee diwali first.

And I wanted to share my other blogs too.. My reading stuff are updated sometimes in http://meghreads.blogspot.in/ and my writting stuff are very rarely kept in http://marvellousmegh.blogspot.in/

Also I made a new video on this special occasion. Wanna see? Hit Play >>

Megh Forever :)