I have applied Resignation - Finally :)

Haha., Greetings Friends!!


I know it is not something to celebrate with. But for the last few days, I am quite happiee. Yes, I have applied my resignation and will be back again to Bangalore in very few days.

Ofcourse, I felt the place was not suitable for me here as I felt too alone with no one to care and guide me properly. Yeah, Vinod anna and Mani ji was there to encourage and motivate me but still, when you feel the aura of someone keeping on hating you without reasons, it doesn't set well with me. I don't belong to a place where I am not needed. This team was like that :) Lol, no offense anyone. Just my lifestyle was not getting adopted to this team culture. My mistake. :) I wanted to change everyone's view about me, I wanted to tell them I am capable enough. But when everyone wanted me to get the hell out of here, when they thought to put me in People Enhance Program, I literally cried. Those days were hell. I wanted to change myself, change People's view on me. Now that everyone feels good about me, ( I hope so :P ) I want to leave this place asap. I need some space. I wanna live my life. All these days, I was working hard, not even spending enough time with friends and family, Why do I have to live like that anymore? To earn name from these people? No. I wanna fly. I wanna grab the rainbow. I have my own talents. I will rule a place where I am kept like a queen.

Sorry Mani Ji/Vino Bhaiyya.. If at all I have disappointed you guys at any cost, please do forgive me. I really respect you both to have been at my side when no one was there. Thank God for that!!

Finally my time has come. I will make sure to try my best to make this offer my turning point.

With Love,
Your Lovable Megh Forever :)

A trip to Pudhukottai

Finally went to a trip with my Colleagues. A trip that first covered Kudumiyanmalai, Brahadambal Temple with Sithanavaasal historical center followed. We had our lunch in a motel on our way back. It was a sunny day and climbing on the steps of Pudhukottai Fort was really tiresome. We got back way too early by 4.00 PM after making sure that we clicked a lot of photos :) 

My First Award in my carrer

  

Hello All,
          Sorry, been busy lately. My work kept me busy even during weekends. I have always thought of getting the hell out of here :D yeah, I was not compatible enough with anyone in my office. I was struggling a lot to keep up a friendly relation with everyone, hoping a day would come when I can prove myself. I am quite stubborn about the way I live. I wanted to prove that I can not only survive here, but come out with flying colors. yes, once that day comes, I will surely bid a nice goodbye to everyone and fly out to my palace :P

To my surprise, the project which I was working with Vinod Anna, my mentor gave me a new turning. He not only appreciated and encouraged me, but also nominated me for an award. This is my first award which is gonna change the opinions others have on me. And to the advantage of it, after receiving this silver award, the very next week, I also got many appreciations from Smart tag Team, The other project I am working in. I was completely happy.

Before my first year working anniversary, I feel myself encouraged and my confidence level which was hidden somewhere deep is peeping out again.. hahaha... I am overwhelmed my the recent happenings.. Thanks for everything, Be with me alwayz :)

Happiee forever,
Meghna.

Mannu's Bday 2017 video

You have got to achieve something in your life. You have been blessed with this beautiful life and here you are, simply acting like a normal human being, doing regular stuff. I hate being like this. When you die, which is gonna happen one day for sure, your name should still live in this world. You have to face death with a smile welcoming it, feeling proud of yourself that you have done something remarkable and that satisfies you. That should be the meaning of everyone's life. And yet, here I stand, doing nothing. Yes, NOTHING! 

I am not a greedy person though. But still whatever I do, my career everything that doesn't give a meaning for my life. I want to create history. I want my parents and my family to be proud of me. I should make myself proud and happy. But today's scenario makes me think that I am nothing but an useless shit. I am not degrading or losing confidence. I know that my biggest plus is my charm and the hell lot of confidence I have.

I do become successful one day. I have survived till now. But I want some miracle to happen in my life. I want a life such that it always intersts me and I have to think of making it thrill and get the fruit out of it. I want something different from the normal lifestyle. And I should be happy to be given a chance of living in this world other than thinking of it as a curse. 

Haha, wondering whether I am greedy or not?😂 Who cares? I always believe in God and let the Almighty lead my way. 

Hoping for the best to happen and let my life turns interesting from now on.

Meghna.

"Hey Janani, what are you thinking of yourselves?"

When someone asks this question, I remember things what all I have been heard of me since my childhood days. Back then when I were a baby, I was chubby enough. People used to come and pinch my pink cheeks and I alwayz feel glad to be carried by people who stretches their hand for me. They find me charming though :P

Later, when I was five, there came an angel into my life. My Mannu <3 I would do anything for her. The living princess at my side forever ;)

Then during the mid times, when I was about 8 to 10, there was always a clash between me and my cousin. I dint like that attitude of hers to always dominate and jealousy. She would do something to irritate me more often and then I started not to like her. Childhood fights, you know. :( Then as the time passed by, she changed and we both grew, came over the silly fights and into an understanding.

During my teens, everytime when I was being ignored or felt bad at times over people or situations, My Mannu would come there for me suppoting me. 

A page from Janani's diary

South indian place - where culture and heritage matters a lot. I am a typical south Indian girl. If you want to act independently, then you are named as rude. You have to act as the world expects you to act. You have to satisfy others to earn a good name. Yeah, society matters a lot than your own world.
And being born as a girl, you have to strictly fall into your boundaries. You will have to obey all these in order to get a great future. This is how a typical south indian family will be. And I always question if you are always thinking of what others might think, then how will you live your life? Without living for you, what is the point of satisfying the needs of others? You have to live your life independently. Be happy and make others happy.
My parents. They bought me up well. I am not exaggerating it. Because I feel proud enough to say this. I haven't regret for whatever I have done. I am good in making friends and I know my limits. My life was soo far good with all the precious time I had with my family and friends. My world is not that small. I have a big family and quite big friends circle. I am open to everyone. And I don't get attached too much to people. This is what I am. I donno what people will think of me, but I love everyone who loves me back.
I am happy and glad with this world of mine. I have always been enjoying in this heaven. But there comes a situation where parents think it is a duty to get their child married and send them off. Seriously!
I donno how they can make plans for wedding all of a sudden. I wonder what a custom is this to suddenly get bonded with a stranger. May be I could just limit to my thinking.
Wedding is a such a holy thing. Generally, girls are treated as goddess who bring happiness to a family. In a point of time, they are sent to another family to light their home with charm and happiness. There is a traditional Indian custom stating that Kannigadhaan is the greatest charity one can give. Kannigadhaan is generally done by the bride's dad to send his daughter to the groom's family. Nothing can be compared to Indian wedding. So traditional. So loving.
The point is that how that bride feels during her wedding. It is going to change her life.she is gonna change her surname, change her family, change her living.
So far, she has been the princess of her only home. Her dad and mom being the king and queen with her siblings to play and laugh with.
This is what her heaven was. How can she leave such a happy place. And even though the groom's family will treat her like the queen of all this world, her small heaven all she lived till now, it holds a lot of memories. How can she even think of leaving her small little happy place?
All these years, she doesn't even have a crush on anyone, waiting for her prince charming to come and hold her hand. Yeah, she would love her prince and his family with all her heart.
She will have to fall in love with that Prince, ready to do anything for him as he loves her dearly. She should feel like she is the angel for both the houses and bring joy. That is when both the Prince and the princess will fall in love all together and get ready for wedding.
That is when the bride will feel confident to leave her small heaven and head towards her Prince's kingdom.
That is when she feels loved by everyone and feel no difference between the two heavens and see both the kingdoms as a same family.
That is when she is completely and madly in love with the Prince and is ready to fly over the sky with him.
And all these are not planned to happen, they happen and alter your life suddenly, like a boom!
You have got to wait for it until then. ;)

Starting of my independent life

Sunday has never been this busy in all my life. I used to wake up late and getting a stare from my Mom during breakfast has become a habit. But today, I am running around my home, packing my dresses and my books.
"Hey Mom, come have a look whether I have packed everything." I call for my mother.
"Are you done with your packing, Ammu ?" her voice reaches me before her. She opens my bedroom door wide open and comes near me. My mom is in her yellow saree with a spoon in her hand. Obviously, she is preparing something I would love to eat.
"Where are your toiletries?" she examines my travel bag and a concerned look appears in her small face.
"I have it packed in my other bag, Mom" I say.
"Fine. Make sure you have packed all your files and documents. Now, it is getting late. Join your Dad for breakfast." I nod and place a small kiss in her cheek while rushing towards the kitchen.
"Its getting late." A silent reminder from my Dad. I see him in his ironed shirt and formal pants ready to go.
"Yes Dad, let's leave in few minutes." Unlike my Mom, my Dad loves me in his own style. He doesn't say it in words rather his action speaks. Whatever he does, it makes me feel he is so proud of me. I hunt for my breakfast in the next few minutes and wave a goodbye to my Mom and sister.

This is the first time I am leaving my house packing all my stuff with me. I can feel my parents and my sister missing me already. I am going to miss them a lot. But my curiosity of living independently and my first job makes me take this big step. I have a got a job offer from a well known corporate company some 300 miles away from my hometown. And I have got to report to them this Monday. I secretly pack a childhood pic of my sister and me sitting together inside my bag and God, I am really excited. My Dad is coming with me to help me find a home near my work place.

Later in the evening, we reach my workplace and my Dad is happy to see my office. We find a home nearby and my Dad pays the initial rent for me. The moonlight reflection falls into my new home through the side window. I look at my Dad and smile for everything he had done.
"Janani" He calls towards me from outside.
"Dad" I reply with a smile again.
"Sleep early. You have a big day tomorrow. Take good care of yourself. Call me once you reach your office." My Dad is such an organized person. I can see his care, his love for his beloved daughter.
"Sure Dad. Have a safe journey back to home." I wave him bye and go upstairs for my dinner.
I love my Dad. I love my small little family. I am missing my happy place.
Later that night, I get a call from my cousin asking about my stay.
"Hello Bro" I wish him.
"Hi Janani" He speaks in a calm way. "I met your Dad in the train station now."
"Oh yeah, he was just leaving after settling things here." I assure him I am set in this place.
"That's Good. Welcome to corporate world. Have a good start." I can hear him smile and wishing me from the other end.
"Thank you Bro" I answer. "Did Dad boarded Train safely?" I enquire.
"yes, I was with him when he boarded. He looked more worried about you. Don't know how he is going to make when you get to marry someone and leave. " I just smiled at that but my heart aches. Suddenly I feel thankful to God for having blessed with a lovely family.